Tuesday, September 26, 2006
I wonder why we yearn so to have others know just what it is that we love. If you know what I love, then you understand who I am, maybe.
I try to remember this with my boys. When they want me to listen to their music, they aren't just saying "hey Mom check this out." They're saying, "Mom, this is what I love right now...this is who I am..listen!!" I don't have to like everything they like. What they want is acknowledgment ..a little nod to their heart, mind and soul..that I understand them a little better, know them a little deeper. This is true with many things that they bring to my attention.
Perhaps this is why religion often plays itself out in hateful ways. From the "bless her heart" gossip to full blown war. When we talk about the Creator and Sustainer, no matter our religion or what we call that Creator and Sustainer, we are discussing something that is fundamental to who we are and what we believe. We are human, however, and when our beliefs are dismissed then we feel dismissed. Sometimes we dismiss others quickly before they can dismiss us. We work so hard to prove that what we have, what we believe is so much more worthy and right than what someone else has or believes. We work so hard for something that is not even attainable through work. It's a gift. It's part of us. If we stop chasing the Divine; just stop and breathe, we find that we are completely wrapped up in the Divine. We can't escape it even if we try. It's like a fish swimming in circles, wearing itself out searching for water...and then being angry with the water for not being found...and being angry with other fish who are just enjoying being soaked.
Well, I just wanted to post my little picture. Don't know where all that came from. Self-therapy, I reckon. I'm a little overwhelmed at the moment. I thought my days of feeling spiritually connected were gone. I had resigned myself to a life of "kinda sorta." Now here I am feeling full to the brim. It is grace. I didn't see it coming. I am thankful.