Saturday, May 12, 2007
This morning I was determined to start my day differently. I picked up a book from my nightstand. It's by Dr. Michael Beckwith and is called 40 Day Mind Fast Soul Feast. It's wonderful and I recommend it highly.
It's a devotional book, meant to be read daily, one entry at a time. I have never read a devotional book that way. I always end up reading them in a sitting or two and then going back.
In this book, Dr. Beckwith reminds us of whose and who we are. He reminded me of something that I thought of intellectually yesterday but never once acted upon. He reminded me that all the guidance and everything I need for every moment of the day is all waiting to be tapped into. All I have to do is be still. Honest! That's it!
It takes a while. Being still sounds easy, but my mind is more active than I ever realized. The moment I sit, little thoughts keep leaking out and sometimes I find myself going with them and have to redirect my thinking, no actually...I have to stop my thinking. I am learning to focus on my breathing. It is the steady thing. Focusing the mind is not an automatic thing. It's like trying to stare at a dot for a long time. Your eyes want to move over to something else. The mind is the same way. The ego has so many things it finds important and picks this one moment of attempted stillness to share them all with you.
It's ok to experience this. The important thing is to keep coming back. The important thing is to not give up and think we'll never "get it." Because the amazing thing that is about to take place is worth all the stops and starts.
When stillness is reached, there is no longer ego between us and God. In fact, we realize that there is nothing between us and God.
In floods this amazing light that makes you want to bubble over with laughter. Go ahead!!! Sometimes I laugh. Sometimes I weep. It's an overwhelming emotional feeling when that light first bursts through and you know beyond doubt that it is the Source of all that is and it's bubbling through you.
I like to sit after this initial emotional feeling has ebbed and flowed and there is a tremendous feeling of calm and peace and nothing else. This is stillness and when we are still, we know. It is not belief. It is not hope. It is a dawning. It is an AHA! It is a realization of what has always been true but is now revealed to me.
Then there is a sense of gratitude. Thank you bubbles up from deep within and it's a giant, blanket Thank You. It's Thank You in general. It's deep appreciation for Being and for Knowing.
My intention for today is to hold on to this knowing for all it's worth! My intention is to let the Source flow through me to others. There are people in my life that I find it hard to love but the good news that I will try to remember today is that the Source of love is within me and the Power of that love is available to me at every moment, unceasingly and all I have to do is keep my ego and small thinking out of the way.
I made this SoulCollage card right after reading and meditating this morning. I wanted to capture this feeling of glee, of complete love and joy and peace.
I hope that you will be inspired to find this. It's right there where you are. Quiet your mind and it will shine through and fill your heart. You will feel that you can't contain it all, that there isn't room for it all. You're right. You'll have to give some away.
I love you.