I opened an Artfire shop today. I'm pretty excited about it and hopefully it will motivate me to get more things made.
I've sort of been in spiritual seeker mode lately and spend a lot of time reading and listening to videos.
It's funny, I guess. I always seem to look for a religion or a belief system that I can lock into. I guess I'd like a label. But the truth is, there isn't one out there for me.
I suppose for the most part, most definite belief systems describe God in ways that I find too limiting and though I like what so many of them represent and do, I can't say that I believe God is definitely this or that.
I believe in an amazing energy that pervades everything. I believe that when we meditate or pray (or whatever we do...spells, chants, rituals, visualize) we tap into that energy. We do it for ourselves, to quiet ourselves long enough to be aware of that presence. It's not a way of manipulating God or the gods or goddesses or whatever we believe that power to be. It's not a way of getting the attention of our higher power or the Universe.
That energy is always there. It beats our hearts. It grows the grass. It controls the stars and planets. It is always there. Meditation (or all those things I mentioned above) simply puts us in a mental and spiritual position (i.e. quiet) to be aware of it and to realize that it is a part of us. We are a part of it. It lets us plug in, so to speak. If I liken that energy to electricity then I think of a lifeless appliance unplugged from the socket. It continues to exist and it continues to have potential but until the plug is actually put into the socket, it doesn't fill that potential. It doesn't have that current running through it. It must be plugged in to benefit and to benefit others.
So, I remain religion-less. I love the Tao but to call oneself a Taoist is sort of like belonging to an Anarchist group. The moment you call yourself a Taoist, it's as if you don't "get" the Tao at all.
Besides, aligning myself with the principles of the Tao doesn't really make me a Taoist anymore than aligning myself with the principles of Jesus makes me a Christian or aligning myself with the Wiccan Reid makes me a Wiccan or Witch or aligning myself with Buddhist principles...well, you get the idea.
I'm not sure why it matters to me. Noone ever asks me what I am. lol I suppose it's all those years of being a Christian and then not only a Christian but a Presbyterian and then not only a Presbyterian but a Presbytery USA Presbyterian and on and on. I've always had a label and now I am labeless.
I guess I am pretty at peace with that right now. Kind of.
Perhaps that is why art is so comforting. The creativity, the energy, the All That Is, the creative force of the Universe, God flows through us and it doesn't matter what we call it. The art comes. The expression comes. Maybe that's why the most satisfying thing for me is when I have no idea what I'm going to do and I just start fiddling with paint or fabric and something comes into being. It reassures me that though I don't have a name for it, the energy is indeed flowing through me into something that I can offer another.
Maybe art is my religion.
I am an artist.