I have every intention of posting pics of the fabulous gifts my boys gave us for Christmas. It never ceases to amaze me that they choose the perfect things that show they truly know us.
I've been totally preoccupied with Morgan Dana Harrington and trying to bring her home. Between work, redecorating (of course you know I'm over the prim thing since Christmas passed) and scouting out findmorgan.com I haven't taken a lot of time for picture taking. Though, there was one night when the sunset totally absorbed me and I got a number of photos.
When I'm not online wracking my brain trying to figure out what happened to Morgan, and not working, I've been pulling out all our art and redecorating with it. I've managed to put some of Patrick's tribal assemblages in the bathroom along with some of the boys' terracotta artwork from elementary school. I admit to being completely frustrated with living in an apartment where the landlords could care less so I have to live with certain conditions. Like, for instance, the year they went without replacing the wax ring around the toilet, so it ruined the already gross and cheap linoleum around the toilet. We finally got the green light to do some painting this year, but we decided that since we're moving as soon as possible, not to spend that money on making this place better. The Noonkesters have a history of never giving back a security deposit so we've decided that our money will be better placed in our next home even if it means living with things as they are for now. Even though, we have seriously made things better while living here. When I first found this apartment, I really didn't want to move here. When I told Patrick about the different apartments I was looking at, I always referred to it as "the ugly apartment." Yet, it was in my price range so the ugly apartment came to be our home. We have made the best of it and some friends, after visiting, have referred to it as our "haven" or "nest."
It is really getting to me lately. I'm so ready to move and we will move by Spring. I will not spend another winter here. There is no insulation. We have to go into the crawl space to turn off the water to the washer/dryer every time there is a possibility of freezing. Even with the heat on, it never gets warm until late afternoon and I'm just tired of it. I can barely function when I'm that cold. Patrick wears gloves in the morning while working and checking email. That's pathetic. On top of all that, the Noonkesters found out that we adopted a kitten and tagged $25 onto our rent. Ugh. I've had it. I'm ready to find a new place. How I wish for a house that is ours where we could paint and have the floors we imagine. Wood floors, tile floors...anything but the cheap linoleum they pull from their construction sites. Yes, our landlord owns a construction business yet he can't figure out how to insulate so that we can stay warm or not have to turn off the water to the w/d in the winter. The only time he's come to our apartment concerned about anything was after he found out about the kitten, who has done no damage.
I am grateful for a roof over our heads. Truly I am. But I am ready for more. I am ready for a home that I can be proud of, or at least, not be ashamed of as I have been for a couple of years now. There is only so much we can do.
Wow. I didn't mean to vent so much but I feel better!! LOL
Thanks for listening. Keep positive thoughts for us in finding a beautiful home where we can be comfortable and still have our sweet little Zeke who brings so much joy to our lives (at night when he settles down lol).
Photos soon, I promise.