I'm not sure why, but I've had a lot of resistance to blogging about this chapter.
In my early years, I was so impressionable that I probably had too many people with input in my life. Wanting to please them all, I rarely pleased any of them or myself.
In my teens, I began to consult movie characters as my mentors. I would watch and try to become the women that I admired most. These were rarely the leading women. Usually it was a supporting character who seemed to have her act together. She was the one that held everyone else together. She was the one who garnered respect and I think I craved respect more than any thing else.
I've been fortunate to have a couple of mentors in my adult life. Some of them may never know the impact they've had on my own confidence in my intelligence and creativity. Just by being themselves and being honest about their opinions of my work, they helped me to hone certain abilities and to then take those abilities out into the world. And every time we hone a certain craft, I think it spills over into other areas of our lives and into other work and I hope into other people so that the gift continues on and on.
Now I find myself surrounded by guides, without and within, and I am so very grateful.
For a very long time I isolated myself. I didn't know the importance or the joy of having so many beautiful women in my life. Now that I know, I will never again allow myself to shrink from that energy or to withhold my own energy from others.
We are guides to one another. We are all in this together.