First, to all my fellow book blogging group members, I apologize for not linking directly to the specific post about the book. It just dawned on me when I began this one. Next time I'll remember.
Yesterday I had the job interview. I was interviewed by four people. It was kind of intense. It went well and I think they'll offer it to me.
However, I am not going to take it.
I was excited before and during the interview. But something happened. I was sitting in the manager's office and she was asking me if it was ok that they couldn't offer many hours. My mouth opened and I couldn't believe the words that came out. "Yes, that's great because I'm an artist and I still want to have time for that." She got it because she said, "it's probably more of a need than a want, isn't it?"
Seconds later, she took a phone call and as I sat there with my own thoughts, I felt my eyes tearing and I wanted to run out of her office. I felt so sad.
When I got home, I started doing the math and realized how little money I would make vs. how much energy I would be giving. I felt desperately sad.
I decided to let it go and listen to this interview with Jennifer Lee of Life Unfolds. Right in the middle of it, I hit the pause button and googled our Parks and Rec center for the number. I called them, told them that I am a SoulCollage facilitator and that I would like to offer a program for their children. There seemed to be interest and the gentleman gave me very detailed instructions for writing a proposal letter to the Superintendent of Youth Services.
I had no huge plan. I just felt compelled so I did it.
I love working with children. I was a preschool teacher, once upon a time. I love the idea, also, of going into some of the more estranged areas of the city to give voice to the children there.
That is about as far as I got directionally.
This morning, I was reading some of the amazing posts by other people who are reading the book by Gail McMeekin.
I was struck by how many of us began to recognize and embrace our creative selves later in life.
We talk about the way it healed us and changed our lives and sometimes we wonder what our lives may be had we embraced that creativity earlier.
And then it hit me.
There is a thought that runs through my mind at least once a day, yet I've never thought of it as more than an observation really.
"If only we could show little girls what they're capable of now so they don't have to wait until they're our age to find their creative selves."
This morning, I realized "we" is "me" and whomever would like to join me.
I want to work with children to help them feel empowered from within, no matter what things are like outside of them.
Creativity can be stifled in the richest suburbs and the poorest inner workings of the city or in the tobacco fields, for that matter.
But the good news is, Creativity can also be nurtured and strengthened in the same places with the right support; with inner and outer cheerleaders that drown out our inner and outer critics.
I want to be a cheerleader for creativity in children!
So welcome to my journey.
It's going to be fun and serious and filled with businessy things and spiritual things and fun things; more ups than downs, more smiles than tears.
I'm so glad to have this incredible blogging circle of friends.
I am thinking of ordering Jennifer's ebook, A Right Brain Business Plan. Because numbers pretty much make me cry but I want to do this right and thoroughly.
I feel peaceful and excited.