I hope everyone had a wonderful Mother's Day. I did. My kids showed me lots of love. :)
Being a parent is a wonderful thing. I think the hardest part of it, though, is watching them go through heartbreaks that you can do nothing about.
Nick's girlfriend broke up with him. He loves her and misses her. He knows he can't wallow, yet, well you know how that hollow feeling in your heart is. I thought he captured it well when he said, "When people tell me I'm better off without her, it's like they're telling me I'm better off without my arm." When they're babies, you can kiss it and make it better. When they're 19, all you can do is let them know you're there but it's a precarious position of being there, yet not hovering.
I do know that the best thing I can do for him is to keep happy, loving thoughts in my mind. That is the best we can do for anyone, for ourselves, for the planet, for mankind. So that is what I do. I build my "happy mind" like one would build muscles in the gym. I monitor my thinking all day long and alter it when necessary. Reframing thoughts. Recognizing negative reactions, forgiving myself for them and shedding them and moving on to positive and constructive feelings.
I worked on this painting all weekend. I almost painted over it at one point but I kept going, trusting the creative and intuitive process until finally it took on its own life.
It represents where I am spiritually, at the moment. I am a fickle being in spirituality and art. Most of the symbols represent union or unity. Some represent the all-knowing Source of All That Is, God, the Universe, Goddess...whatever you call that unfathomable yet palpable presence. I am grateful to be one with God and with every one and every thing. We are all connected. We are not alone.
I love you.